laying bricks

Did you know I played basketball?  Well, I was a baller.  We didn't have no All Star Game in my league, but that tall Chinese kid definitely would have made the team.  The King of Lay ups, there was no stopping him once he got that rebound, darting all the way across the court to make that hoop.  He was like both Hakeem Olajuwon and Michael Jordan.  Everybody dreaded playing his team.  The scouts were interested, got in touch with his school and everything...I'm rambling.  This should be a soft piece; posting here usually spells out a doomsday package, the iceman cometh.  And it's weird, handwriting.  I'm handwriting this right now.  I get ahead of myself, handwriting--I misspell words to keep up with my thoughts, afraid I may forget, then I have to type it up oh it's a mess I've created.  Of course, I'll have to delete this part when I put it up.  So I guess that means previously you could measure my thoughts by how fast I fingertype on a smart phone?  More rambling.

My friends had joined the leagues.  Around that time and I know even earlier, I didn't have a sport to talk about with the others; I had one friend who loved wrestling, too, but the kids would make fun of us for it.  He would bring me old magazines, and I remember how secretive we were in class sliding the wrestling magazines out from his backpack.  During lunch they would talk about their teams, or a game that week where they would play each other.  I would feel left out and I said one time that I was on a Tae Kwon Do team; they quickly dismissed my statement as fast as I dismissed the enthusiasm with which I made the statement.  I wasn't on any team, in that regard; and as far as I know, they weren't sitting there clamped down on the toilet before practice.  Wipe that trout right off your face!  the teacher would say.

I had the basketball cards--pogs, I liked pogs--the Alonzo Mourning oversized jersey from the Charlotte Hornets--I mean, I was meant to say I was on a team, too.  I can't remember watching too many games.  I liked Grant Hill.  He was supposed to be the best, but he was always injured.  I liked his smile on his card standing in his Team USA jersey with the ball at his waist.  He seemed like a nice guy.  Based on my cards, I would decide who were my favorite players.  Sometimes the deck would have fictional players, like Kilgore Trout, I think, and those limited edition cards had a lot of value.  But sometimes I wouldn't know that player didn't actually exist.

After breaking my foot again got me out of karate--and sorry for the affront to martial arts, but that's just how I viewed the sport at the time.  So my folks let me sign up for the basketball leagues, where there, under the limelight--rather, the sunlight, under the sunlight at lunch I could proclaim I was on a team.  When our practice sessions for the season began, I was still on crutches.  My cousin from up north was visiting for about a week or so; he went to practice with me and it was a jovial atmosphere. The coaches suggested he take my spot during sessions while I was healing.  He had been playing for years and loved the sport.  My team immediately took to him, and we all looked forward to me playing like him.  After he left, and I was better, my teammates did not prefer my style of laying bricks.  My dad bought me a basketball hoop so I could practice at home.  Work?  What!  Again?!

One of the better players on the team one time muttered something undermining about my presence when he lost playing time.  He could shoot, but I was punctual.  I pretended not to hear, but in my head I wondered why I can't call him the N word if he was calling me the short A word.  For his attitude, the coaches disciplined the player accordingly.  I mean, I called Jason the N word in elementary when he called me the A word, and the kids were trying to tell on me.  I don't think that was very fair, do you?
- Well, the way I see things--
Hey, what are you doing?  You can't just start talking randomly. Introducing another voice in the middle--this isn't the time.  He was Michael Jordan, and they called me Vlade Divac.  A couple of the teachers said Gary and Jose were the best looking boys in our class, and Jason got angry and muttered it's cause he's black.  I, of course, had my feelings hurt as well.  We were all friends.  Luke was Larry Bird.  I liked Luke.  He had a huge trabopoline in his backyard, I mean, tramopoline.  We got into a fight in class one time; we pushed each other.  Our teacher brought our parents in cause they all knew we were such good friends.  When we made up and I went in to shake his hand, he hugged me.  He was wearing a denim jacket.  Jason's mom got divorced.  He ended up changing his last name.  Jose was the funny one.  He called me Vlade on the court.  He would giggle.  See, like I would be dribbling, slapping the ball to the ground uncontrollably, and he would say Vlade! and he would giggle.  Get it?  Got it?  I'd get nervous and pass the ball.  Sometimes I'd fall for it when a player on the other team asked for the ball.  Gary was my best friend, I later ditched him and was cold to him when I thought he was boring.  I feel like I should add something here.  I'm eating a watermelon.  It tastes like a bitter pill.    Luke's family moved to Boston early on in elementary, probably because he was such a good basketball player and they wanted him to play on the Celtics.

Anyway, about my team, years later I learned not to take much offense when someone makes fun of you for not being good at something your heart isn't really into.  Instead, you build a mountain, of sorts, brick by brick, or create a sea, with trout and other little weird fishes swimming underneath; and it doesn't matter what anyone says, you can create your own world.  Go for it.  You can always come back and sit on your mountain. The dumbest thing you can say to a wrestling fan is that wrestling is fake.

We would play our games on Saturdays in the gyms of middle schools across the city or the town's recreation centers.  One time, I started the scoring off with two consecutive long range jumpers.    That was pretty exciting.  There were flames behind me and my icon was flashing.  I felt like the families on the stands thought I was a player to watch.  I couldn't buy a bucket the rest of the game.  Afterwards we had orange juice and donuts.


To One, Loved


I don't have much to say.  I don't really know if I should.  I don't want to be presumptuous.  I don't even know if you're reading this.  If you are by chance reading this, go ahead and disregard the last line; clearly, that is not the case.  I know I sound humble right now, I'm sure of it.  I'll try not be funny—will you shut up I'm telling her!  This is as much for me as it is for you I think, and I hope you understand.  Maybe more even—if anything, it'll salvage a point.  If anything, it will help.  Sorry I compared you to others, the other girls in your pictures, those on the backend, and my behavior on the backline; sorry for the things I had no right to, and other things I have no right to.  I was offside.  

You're incomparable, you're like the villain in a timeless film.  You make the movie.  And I guess, then, well—but your mother's the hero.  Guess I'm trying too hard to be funny again.  I know I nailed a couple up there, I'm sure of it; I hope you can tell I'm not very comfortable.  I'm working while lining up my defense, I guess.  It's noticeable, isn't it?  Ah, babe, it's all that tactical analysis I've been listening to. 

Where am I going with this?  Am I sabotaging my effort?  Besmirching my own present again?  Am I asking myself too many good looking questions, providing myself a brilliant cross?  Am I behind a pass that'll slice through the defense?  Babe look over there!  Okay, I have changed my tone.  

I was so petty when coach said you should take the penalty kicks; in the locker room I didn't defend you.  I didn't understand what it meant to be teammates; most games I was trying to block your shots.  When you tried to set up a play, I came up behind and pushed you.  You were out for three weeks with a strained calf muscle injury.  It was deplorable.  It was the worst.  When I had the ball, I wouldn't even give out an assist and called you a goal poacher.  What were you to do?  Life's not as simple as strikers and goalies.  Guess I need to accept that if I'm ever going to get out of this contract.  I don't even know if my team can make it to the Intertoto Cup.  

I don't want to change your thoughts anymore, ruin your career with my cleats—I just want you to know I'm sorry for the sad and terrible goals I was on the end of.  I hit you with some brutal headers.  I was the poacher.  Obviously, this was during practice when you had the crazy idea of trying out for keeper.  And if you can remember some of the good goals as well, the ones we made together during qualification...well, then don't think I'm being manipulative hey you're remembering thems on your own.  Hold on...Great, the linesman again.  It's my backline.  These guys can't get it together, babe.  I need to work on that.  You can't go through life resenting a blind ref.  I can't say much more, I'm sorry—the police are after me.  I threw a five dollar bill on the counter and ran off with the cake.  It's worth way more than five dollars.  Thought I'd get a value with a capital V.

I know you want the best for me, I know you want me to have it all.  But I won't.  I'll share it with others.  And together we can stay above the relegation zone.  They don't know the history behind what they're eating.  They don't need to know.  Next time I see someone walk up to take their cake, I'll try to remember that.  I hope you're happy.

Doesn't that last line sound like letting the air out of a little balloon?  You were my balloon.  I used to squeeze you.  Okay, they're here.  I'm going to get out of the car now.  I have a price gun.


bambkaneroffkay em arel ko hamar

I know the date is wrong.

excerpt. from "His Biography"

Nurse Birchannity Ann asked him if there was anything more she could get for him.  He turned his head from the wall and answered, Some more custard.

She reminded him she already brought him two servings—that other patients, too, would also like one.

He gazed beyond her for a moment, finally conceding, then acknowledged her as Birch.  He turned his face back to the wall, and started softly weeping.

That's when I realized, reveals Nurse Birchannity, known to all endearingly as Ann, This dude's a crier.

now for the best soup,

allergic reaction




Vince and Jim (House Show Main Event)

(here)

the promos

- (Mean Gene) Thank you, Jim.  I'm here with Lester Sully who—
- (Lester Sully) Listen, Mean, Gene, Listerine: I have two teeth...woo!  Bottom—woo!  Not no top, not no under the top on the top, vertical...woo!...middle above the bottom—bottom.  Corner, pocket—no...no...woo!  One away from the corner—come away with me to a secret garden, from the sewer to your home...woo!  I...have...two teeth I need to brush again, I'm harshing my tongue—I'm racking leaves, baby, woo! (walking away)
- (Mean Gene) What the hell was that?

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- (Mean Gene) Hot off the heels of that slugfest—Now, Khash, you heard what Lester Sully earlier had to say about your upcoming match, if anybody can make something out of it, you can.  What are your thoughts on—
- (EatKhash) You know something, Mean Gene, when I think about Lester, that greasy old goat, Brother, I think about all those bugs in the ground crushed like leaves and all those little fish getting eaten by other fish, and mothers eating their children dinosaurs living with humans and our children disappearing like cities underneath the feet of polar ice caps melting, and I say to myself, Brother, where are the Samoans gonna go?  The Pacific Islander chink babies—little children with little feet—little chink feet, their little chink feet, Mean Gene, and I say to myself...Lester, Lester, you toothless greasy old goat—you see this bald dome?  Lester, what are you gonna do, Lester?  Whacha' gonna do, when Mine and Mean Gene's bald domes run wild into you?
- (Mean Gene) He's off to the ring, Ladies and Gentleman!

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House Show Main Event...at 8PM
(you're late...don't tell me the dog show ran too long...)

...- (Jim) This could settle it.  He's gonna give him a headbutt, Vince.  He's gonna ram his bald head into Lester's butt.  This could do it.  But no!  Lester doesn't move, the cow, he doesn't fall over.  Khash looks like a petulant Homer Simpson trying to ram another...head ram—
- (Vince) A cow, Jim.  What a show of force and inertia by Lester Sully, that greasy old goat.  Khash is on the mat, wiping his forehead and complaining to the ref.
- (Jim) Oh he's bickering!  He's bickering, that's what he's doing...
- (Vince) He's on his hands and knees—Oh and what a nasty kick to the face by Lester—
- (Jim) The spineless jellyfish!
- (Vince) Like a footballer at a golf course, and the ref goes down from all the blood splatter...uh...
- (Jim) Blood gushing from Khash's noth and mouse—
- (Vince) His nose did an inverted vertical somersault to God—
- (Jim) Goodness Almighty!  Let Goodness be gracious—
- (Vince) And stood tall against a golden army of the Sun—
- (Jim) And irrationalism, Vince.  It's coming down from a sentimental journey, I'll tell ya.'
- (Vince) It was the blood, Jim; it landed on Earl Hebner's face and now he can't see—he can't see!
- (Jim) No, Vince, I believe I saw a tooth haul ass from Khash's mouth and landed in the referee's eye.
- (Vince) Fuck you!
- (Jim) Now he's unconscious, Vince.
- (Vince) No, fuck you, Jim.
- (Jim) It caught him in the eye, it did.
- (Vince) I'm in charge!  Who's in charge here?  Me or you?
- (Jim) Here goes Lester again with another punt...and he slips on his own grease!
- (Vince) This is unbelievable, folks, he slips from the grease...from his very own—
- (Jim) Some of his hair gel must have plopped on the mat, Vince.
- (Vince) No, Some of it landed on your face and gave you some style, Jim.
- (Jim) Well, I don't know about that.
- (Vince) Of course you don't!  
- (entrance music
- (Vince) Wait a minute...
- (Jim) What's that music?
- (Vince) Uh-oh!  It could only mean one thing—
- (Jim) It's the Ultimate Warrior!
- (Vince) Will you shut up I was gonna say that!
- (Jim) Here he comes! He's running to the ring.
- (Vince) Who's he gonna help?
- (Jim) The ref's out cold.  Khash barely crawling to pick through Earl's pocket.
- (Vince) Here comes Lester—
- (Jim) Oh, they're bickering—they're bickering over Earl's cell phone.  What a filthy show of—
- (Vinceaside) He better not go through those photos.  
- (Jim) Looks like Lester's accusing Khash of wanting the phone for playtime, which is a fair assumption—
- (Vince, aside) Oh, I gave them both some speed in the back.
- (Jimaside) You what?
- (Vinceaside) Before the promos—Oh don't get all high and mighty with me.
- (Jimaside) The guy's gonna be jackin' it all over the place come backstage!
- (Vince) And Warrior's running around the ring—He's shaking the ropes.
- (Jim) He's back down, again, running around the ring...again...
- (Vinceaside) What's this nut up to now?
- (Jim) And he's running towards backstage!
- (Vince) That's it!  This is the last contract—I've had with this lunatic.
- (Jim) He's a loose canon.
- (Vince) I'll show him renegate.  I'm outta here, I'm...(distant verbal spewing) ...Fire his ass!  I'm gonna sue the...the...fuckface!...out of that painted...
- (Jim) Vince has taken off his headset, folks.  I apologize for the—What's this?  It's Today!  Today!  By God—He must have been hiding under the blog the whole time!  Uh-oh, he's got a steel chair.  The chair lounges back and Lester's not aware.  He can't see.  He can't see behind him, folks—Right to the back of the head and there's pomade all over the place.  What a spectacle!  The referee, checking his pockets; Khash taking his hand out of his pocket.  Khash rolls him over, 1...2...and 3!  Oh that does it, by golly.  He's got his blog back!

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backstage

- (Mean Gene) I'm here with EatKhash and Today, who have reclaimed, in the ground!  Khash, Khash—What are you going to do now that—
- (Today) We're going to a hookah bar!